Not My Owm

I don’t go to therapy to find out if I’m a freak

I go and I find the one and only answer every week

And when I talk about therapy, I know what people think 

That it only makes you selfish and in love with your shrink

But, oh how I loved everybody else

When I finally got to talk so much about myself 
– Dar Williams, What Do You Hear in These Sounds 

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A Cry for Help

All I do is bring people down.

All I do is push people away.

All I want is to make people happy.

All I want is people around me.

Yet it feels out of my control.

How do people live knowing

all they do is hurt others?

Please, I’m begging for the answer. 

How do people stop hurting others?

All I want is happy people, 

all I do is the opposite.

I need help,

I’m begging for it to go away 

and it won’t.

I need it to go away.

Sex or Love?

Sometimes it’s hard.

Hard to know why someone is with us.

Is it the sex? Or is it because they actually enjoy 

you as a person?

Sometimes you know they love you.

Even though you know,

sometimes that person does something.

Then the anxiety starts.

It says “you’re worthless,”

“You’re never good enough,”

“All you’re good for is sexual pleasure,”

“That’s all people see when they look at you,”

And then,

you can’t help but wonder if 

one day

it’ll be true?