Violence 

Don’t be violent towards anyone ever. It can be as little as grabbing their arm and pulling them back in an argument. That’s still not ok. There are people who are physically and emotionally abused every day. Some who are abused take it out on other people like friends. Please don’t do this. There’s other ways of getting emotions out that don’t include hurting someone else. If you ever feel the need to hit someone or abuse someone in any other way just walk away from the situation and go on a run or write or do whatever helps you when you’re feeling a rush of emotions. It’s for the better I promise you.  

Sex or Love?

Sometimes it’s hard.

Hard to know why someone is with us.

Is it the sex? Or is it because they actually enjoy 

you as a person?

Sometimes you know they love you.

Even though you know,

sometimes that person does something.

Then the anxiety starts.

It says “you’re worthless,”

“You’re never good enough,”

“All you’re good for is sexual pleasure,”

“That’s all people see when they look at you,”

And then,

you can’t help but wonder if 

one day

it’ll be true?

Loop

Stuck in a loop

like your favorite song,

playing over and over and

over again.

Pushing away the ones 

who are close to you,

who you want and 

are scared to lose.

There’s no reason to think

this way but

here 

am.

Scared I mean nothing.

Scared you don’t care.

Too needy,

the loneliness consuming 

me. 

This is why I push people away before

they become too attached.

In the end they stay and

get hurt anyway. 

I’m sorry.

I don’t want it to be this way,

but for some reason it hasn’t ever 

changed….

This is How it Goes 

This is how it goes:

One thing upsets me, 

I get mad and react…

possibly without thinking.

Eventually I realize I might be

overreacting.

I then continue to be upset….

for different reasons like

I hate myself,

I’m a horrible person,

I’m not good enough.

Eventually I forget why 

I was crying in the first place and 

I try to tell myself to stop

and it won’t.

I hate depression.

I have no reason to be upset right now.

I feel like I’m absolutely insane and 

why would anyone put themselves around that?

I’m sorry,

I’m sorry,

I’m sorry.

I hate putting people through pain.

Memories 

It’s interesting.

You think of the past,

of people now gone,

of memories forgotten,

now remembered.

You think of the people

in those memories and realize.

They’re not the ones you miss, 

you just miss the feeling or the 

specific action.

Maybe that’s when

you’ve moved on.

I Don’t Understand 

Never understood how

someone like you could

be with someone like me.

I have a kid,

I know.

I suffer from depression,

I know.

I’m only 18, 

I know.

I’m sorry. 

Now I hurt you.

Sorry. 

I know it’s complicated,

I know others may not 

understand.

But I can explain it,

we’ll get through it.

Me having a kid is

for me to share after all.

I’m sorry. 

I guess it doesn’t matter so much 

to me.

It’s not a secret,

I’m not trying to hide it.

I just thought it was ok. 

Sorry for hurting you,

once again,

I never meant to.