Not My Own

I have been in love before-

snared by emotion so intense, 

deception by omission was easy.

But lies smother love. And in the wake

of my confession came a white-hot

                                                                        sizzle

of anger. I deserved every hateful 

word. Lying here, inhaling new love,

hope swells inside me. Skin against 

skin, I lose myself within the sharp

                                                                       crackle

of passion, freed by embracing

the truth I cannot change.

I find slender rays of fear 

in his eyes, yet he places his trust

in me and I will not

                                                                      shatter 

that. I blanket his body with mine.

Tattoo him with pleasure.

Lead him to the edge of the cliff,

push him over, feel him fly,

wings beating softly in the promise of

                                                                      this night.

– Fireworks by Ellen Hopkins from Tilt 

Selfishness

Wow.

Now it’s all coming back to me.

The pain,

The tears,

Everything,

Pouring out.

I was doing so well.

Selfishness,

in the way of 

self-healing.

Unwilling to pay

$10 a week. 

That’s just one counseling session.

Selfishness,

in the way of 

everything.

Liar, Liar 

Liars,

cheaters,

hypocrites everywhere.

Bad things happen to good people

but really,

karma is just a bitch.

The circle never stops spinning. 

Liar, liar,

pants on fire.

Not a good person,

never was.

Now, 

maybe 

you

can

understand.

You get

what

you

deserve.

However,

sometimes,

bad things 

do

happen

to

good

people. 

Other times,

it’s just karma

in your face.

Right Things, The Wrong Time 

You meet someone,

but at the wrong time.

It’s obvious,

something there.

If it’s really right,

will it unveil at the right time?

Connected,

since we met.

Now that connection,

growing stronger.

Happier than I’ve felt.

Right things happen at the wrong time,

be patient.

The right time will come. 

Stop the Hate

A saying always said,

“Violence is not the answer.”

Truth,

but who tries to enforce it?

Power, power.

All anyone wants.

Violence, 

to get it.

Everyone for themselves.

Stop the hate.

Stop the abuse.

Trump is president,

You don’t have to like it,

Or accept it.

But stop the violence, 

You’re not helping.

Spread the love

instead. 

You Must Be Mistaken 

My heart

is sore.

Trying to find 

someone to make it more.

“You’re perfect,”

I blush.

Shake my head.

No way, 

Insecurities,

Sadness,

Depression,

Abuse.

No way.

Not me.

I’m nothing other than

a seed trying to grow

in a desert with no water.

I’m nothing,

I’m trash.

I’ve been crazy before,

not anymore.

I’m not funny.

I’m not pretty.

You must be mistaken

because I am not what you say I am.